New beginning... Hopefully

Over the last few weeks, my friend Laura has been telling me about the diet plan she has been following.  We'll today I have decided to give it a go!
Enough is enough.

I am a secret eater and a binge eater.

Yesterday I finished work 15 minutes early and I was excited - why? Not because it meant going home early, but because it meant I could go to McDonald's on the way home and Mum would never know.
At the time this seemed like a brilliant idea, but when I think about it now I find it absolutely absurd!  What a pathetic and stupid thing to do! I'm 24 years old - if I want a McDonald's surely as an adult I can have one? According to my brain apparently not! According to my brain it is wrong, forbidden, naughty... All those words that make it more appealing.
To add insult to injury I felt it was an accomplishment that I only ordered one meal - a regular meal not even large! What a joke.

And the worst thing about all this is I then went home, gave my mum the fruit salad I was going to have with my lunch, then ordered us a Chinese take away for dinner!!! I had just eaten a MEAL from McDonald's but I treated it like a small snack!

So today I went out and bought myself a new set of scales - note that this is because my current one has a weight limit too low for me...
I weighed myself and to be honest it has not sunk in yet. I don't think it will for a while but it needs to soon.
My weight is ridiculous.
I cant even bring myself to post it on here.
I am ashamed of myself.
I don't want to feel this way. I want to be proud of myself.

I want to buy clothes from regular shops - not just Evans!

I want to fit in a booth at a restaurant.

I want to sit in my car without my stomach touching the steering wheel.

I want to be able to stand up without getting back ache. Not even walking around - just standing up!

I am tired of carrying enough weight for 3 people around.
I have had enough.
My body has had enough.
It's time for me to do something about the way I am treating myself before my body gives up fighting and I die before I reach 30.  Because I honestly believe I won't make it to 30 if I carry on the way I am.

Here goes nothing!